God, i need ur comfort

2007-04-20T23:46:00.000-07:00

thin happen this few day... hai.. and my temper not really good too... suddenly feel like all my fren leavin mi.. hai... and now i oso dunno how to face ah bee and xueling... sorry to create so many trouble for u bee... hai... anyway i juz not a good fren... i fail to bein a fren of u all....... thin should left untold.... unknown tear..................

2007-04-11T04:04:00.000-07:00

juz reached home... went bugis again.... this time pei shan shop... den after tat go eat.... ya... den walk around again.... den go eat again.. go breko eat... wanted to go xue ling there eat but it too late i think... ya... shan treat.... ya..... den after tat went east coast drink... after tat went home le... ya...... hai... goin to no line use liao...my mum going to cut away my line le.... coz of the bill... saded... cut le oso dunno wat to use..... dun use phone liao??? or i go sign another line or buy per paid card use first.... so many bill need to pay... still owe my bro the internet bill too.... wah.... going mad..... money money pls come to mi.... all i need is u.... haha......

2007-04-10T07:20:00.000-07:00

dunno wat have go into mi... dunno... realise tat i not myself anymore... and become very cb... hai... dunno la... everyday juz wan to drink and go out happenin... hai... ah bee told mi juz now xue ling give up hope on mi le.. izzit ture? i got so wat til ppl give up hope on mi ma? hai... nvm la.. think soon everyone wil juz give up hope on mi ba... hai... when sherry say mi juz now i feel really sad... but i juz have to act strong.. she say when ppl treat mi good love mi care for mi i dunno how to cherish and thin when ppl have left mi den i realise thier good and thin and noe how to cherish... hai... dunno... really regret.... but think it too late to regret le ba.. hai... i gonna be strong... hai.. feel like cryin now.. hai... juz noe tat i cant break down in front of all of them... i dun wan anyone to c the weaker side of mi... hai...

i told leng life is so meaningless to mi now.. and she told mi tis... life is meaningful if you make it MEANINGFUL, life will only be meaningless when want it to be MEANINGLESS... ya.. but how am i gonna make it meaningful???? hai.. i dunno... can anyone tel mi??? hai....

the smile tat nv come back again

2007-04-10T06:00:00.000-07:00

hmmmm.... juz reach home... went bugis today.... saw xue lian.. haha... den pei quimei go her work place awhile den go find qin.... wait for her to finish work.. den we went to v8 and eat.. haha.. den wait for sherry to come... eat finish no place go den we go east coast slack... saw wei heng... lol... den he ask us wan go drink.. went drink wif him.. before tat qui mei was tokin he comfim open beer.... but end up open martell... lol... drink while waitin for ah qiang to come... think he reach around 1plus? den we go roundin... i sit infront den they three sit behide... coz is my fren but din noe he qin and quimei are linked too til we at yishun there de spc.. haha.. they keep wan to disturb mi la while on the way there.. stupid.. wan make mi pai seh... haha.. den went to seletar... den at there slack awhile.. den headed to geylang... slack til 5plus den he drive us home.. haha... ride ah wah bike at seletar... haha... so shoik... i goin to chiong for my bike lic le.. hahaha... dunno feel quit happy tat moment... lol....

2007-04-09T01:30:00.000-07:00

hmmm... reach home at 10plus... today whole day slp at chee hon house... haha... ya... hmm..so many thin wan to say out... but juz dunno how to say.... hahaha... ya..... i wan feel bein love..... haha..... speechless...... lol.................................................

it bein a long time i last saw my pig.... wonder how she doin? is she doin fine? and how the thin between her zhi hao and renee? are she stil the same? and thin.... hmmm... anyway juz hope she noe how to think for her self ba.... ya........ miss.........

2007-04-07T21:31:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. tis few day nv blog.. have been going out.. haha... went xueling house ton went out wif qin they all and thin... yesterday went 97.. i was drunk... haha.. den xueling come brim mi home... ya.. feel so bad... my nonsense make all of them cant stand mi la... haha... so sorry.... hmmm... now goin to meet sherry le.... ya....

2007-04-02T01:35:00.000-07:00

today wake up at 5plus... din went to bai my ah ma.. ya.. feel so bad... hai.. nvm... wake up bath eat den went parkway find xin ci they all... xin ci wanted to cut hair but the saloon close so nv cut.. ya.. den joey brin her baby go today... zndan grow up le... lol.. he so cte la.. haha.. den we go play pool den slack around lo... 12plus darren fetch mi jie wei shu ren xin ci home... ya...

2007-03-30T18:32:00.001-07:00

yesterday after geylang went find sherry.. listen to her problem.. ya.. til 5plus den went home... reach home c my bro eatin so went down eat wif lay phaneg.. haha.. after tat slack awhile den go home slp le... wake up at 4plus 5.. meet lay pheng and hui ling go interview but.. haha... ya.. after tat go city hall meet ah bee den went to daphne's workin place there eat.. total eat 70dollar both of us.. haha... after tat pei daphne go bugis den went go from there.. reach home bath rest awhile went out again til now.. haha... go boat.q find qin and sherry and fren.. went drink at color dunno wat.. total open 3bottle of martel.. all of us drink til like dunno wat la.. damn high.... we play card game and stupid thin la.. den blah blah blah... drink from 12plus til 5plus 6 close shop... haha.. end up got two drunk mao... haha... the si ah pui drink so litter den keep vomitin.. lol... haha.. he cannot make it wan sia... i jio him drink.. i drink on the rock he drink mix wif green tea wan.. he already at there wan vomit le.. think he vomit alot of time... lol.. onli noe mi and sherry keep jio him drink juz wan to c him drunk.. haha... but he keep run away... tian ci and shuan drunk.. haha... den slack til 7plus 8 and they vomit finish and not so drunk le den go home le.. den mi and qin walk very far flag cab for them coz alot ppl waitin for cab.. ya... anyway have a great nite at there ya... hahahaha......

2007-03-30T03:10:00.000-07:00

wed meet ah bee 3.30 wanted to catch 4pm de 300 but i was late.. end up nv watch.. den walk around at marina sq.. haha... den go eat den headed off to town... went far east while watin for xue ling to come.. wait for her 3h plus la.. stupid den mi and ah bee walk there and here... haha.. den meet her at cini... watch the dunno wat show... after tat go eat again... den go ah bee house ton... den slp til dunno wat time den i cant slp back le.. den 2plus leave her house she go work den i go xue ling house... she change and everythin den we go bukit panjang plaza eat den walk around... after tat walk back to her house... slack awhile around 8plus 9 pei her go meet her cousin and cousin fren.. den the fren drive us to changi v c ren yao.. not much today.. after tat went to 85 to eat... saw sis jo xiao hui rachel they all.. den chat awhile den ya... eat finish go back to changi v again hopin tat have more ren yao but stil the same.. after tat the fren send mi home.. haha... ya.. now goin geylang buy cigg.. ya.. haha... den go find sherry slack ba.. ya....

2007-03-28T08:08:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. yesterday wake up at 3plus... den online kai li was here... ya.. den 5plus ah wei and ler mei fang come too.. den went down to eat.. after tat online again... waitin for qin til i can die la... she 11plus den replay mi... den end up din go out the whole morning stay at home slack... den msg ah bee den suddenly so many ppl msg mi and reply mi.. msg jo today she din reply mi den forget it.. hai.. oso dunno wat she thinkin and thin.. hai.. nvm.. den xue ling called mi ya.. dunno y ah biao suddenly msg mi... wried.. msgin wif him awhile den he call mi i still tot who la... den chit awhile den hang up liao.. ya... den 12plus 1 meet lay pheng we cycle go geylang buy cigg den cycle back.. ya. den went to SPC coz she wan to work today but end up have some quarrel.. ya.. den go void deck sit.. den ya.. cycle to kallang airport 7 11.. on the way back saw desmond den the tall guy dunno wat xiaong wan forget the name le.. den chat awhile... den slack around my house here til now... cant slp dunno y.. later meetin bee go watch 300 den meet xue ling watch haunted sch? dunno.. haha... ya.... i wan to find job asap... make myself as busy as i can.. so i wont think so many think... ya... i wan go drink later.. but guess i cant later xue ling sure wil say mi? dunno.. later den c how ba... omost drink everyday nowaday.. hai.. feel like cuttin myself but guess i juz dun have the courage to cut ba....

2007-03-27T21:30:00.000-07:00

hmmm... been a long time since i blog... thin happen this 1month plus... hmmm... been slackin and drinkin all tis while... hai... dunno y juz feel very upset tis few day... hai.... but guess i wil be find soon ba??? dunno... so many wanted to say out.. but guess no wan care ba.. ya... speechless..... alone in a maze findin my way out... am i lockin my self up? hai... my heart juz cant open out to anyone... hai... but cryin silently in side.... hai... mayb wat sherry say yesterday is rite ba... juz waitin for her to lend mi tat book....

anyway juz wan to thank ah bee for treatin mi this few week when we r out.. haha.. wait til i got money i treat u back k... haha... ;)

2007-02-02T00:22:00.000-08:00

tue
when meet xinci and shan... rong shan go cut hair so mi and xinci go walk around.. den i buy a top from dorothy perkins.. haha... den we juz walk lo.. waited for shan abt 1hour plus... after tat we go eat sakae.. eat til 6.. after slack til 7 den go home le...

wed
nv go anywhere.. coz i slp til 7 den wake up... but den i got 1free fish and co treat.. haha... coz yao zhou win his soccer match.. he goin to treat mi sherry and qin ba.. haha...

today
watch vcd slp at 12noon.. den wake up at 3plus go bath den meet charlene... go parkway again... go shop.. went to dorothy perkins again.. haha.. but tis time is charlene buy.. after shop finish i go cut hair wanted damn long for the hair cut.. den chee hon at there kpkb.. den when to giant coz ying ying wan buy cai home.. haha... after tat slack awhile den went home le... haha... gonna save money i wan buy 1 top from topshop and 1 from dorothy perkins.. haha...

2007-01-30T03:05:00.000-08:00

blog from last wed..

last wed
last wed nite went mos.. was bore there.. haha... at there til 2 3plus den went home le...

den thur
went meet shan and xinci for dinner..

fri
meet charlene at bugis.. we go interview.. after that go bugis v shop.. and i brought 1short 1pant and two top.. haha.. after tat go eat den wait for meizhen yingying hui ping to come.. den at bugis shop awhile den went down to parkway.. meet chee hon den play pool den slack awhile den go home... den i at bus stop call sherry.. she say she goin fishin wif chee hon the all so i joined them.. wait for sherry at chee hon house there de bus stop den we two headed to bedok jetty find them... den catch til 3plus 4 den we left... cycle to chee hon.. cycle til wan die la.. haha... ewach chee hon house rested awhile.. den 7plus went buy breadfast for them... after breadfast wait for timoty.. wait until all of us sleep at the livin room la.. lol.. after went home slp...

sat
nv go anywhere stayed at home...

sun
wake up bath den go jo house... return her the vcd.. den sit at her house til 10 by myself den go home le lo.. noe dun go her house.. hai..

den today
wanted go for interview but den i cant wake up.. lol.. haha... den nv go anywhere lo.. at nite go jo house i in bus le den she ask mi dun go.. wat the.. den i drop the bus lo.. at katong.. den have a little quarrel wif her... den saw jie wei they all at there sit there slack awhile the they go choot chait(dunno how to spell) den i go home lo.. walk walk walk den saw justin...chat awhile den i contuine my walk to the bus stop.... den take bus home...

2007-01-23T23:28:00.000-08:00

today wake up at 5.. after go bath den went parkway meet xin ci and shan... den go eat.. after tat meet darren awhile den go home le... saw yong zhi and his gf.. haha.. reach home online den eat again... watch tv.. nth to do.. haha... sian!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-01-23T05:30:00.000-08:00

going round seein ppl blog... realise somethin... i really dunno wat is happenin around mi sia... think i have drift from everyone.... i'm far far back from them... hai.. y?? think i really have to step out from where i am now.. hai... i really have no life sia... hai.. where the yinjie i use to c??? where ur smile gose??? where are all ur crap and joke??? everythin gone... how can i find back myself?? i'm lost.... really lost.... i have no wan can turn to... bein alone at the road out there... cryin all by myself wif the sorrow in mi...

fren come and go... hai...

2007-01-23T03:50:00.000-08:00

today wake up at 5plus....den watch tv til 8 bath and go jo house... she idiot sia.. say around 9 wil reach home end up 10plus den reach home.. let mi wait so long la... den 11plus leave her house take bus home... realise somethin.. when i reach home i start eatin non stop la.. hahaha... tml goin town wif xin ci and shan.. haha.. go c got cloth buy not.. haha...

2007-01-22T00:30:00.000-08:00

hmmm... today nv go anywhere wake up at 4pm.. den watch tv lo.. my cousin come.. hard to go out too.. go out he wil nag at mi... haha... den jo idoit la... afternoon ask her wan meet mi ma den she like dun wan to meet like tat.. den 8plus ask mi wat time i goin over.. den like tat lo.. she everytime like tat wan sia.. ask her wan meet ma everytime say dun wan den last min msg mi ask mi meet her.. everytime i have to cancel my thin juz to meet her but she dunno and at there keep scoldin mi.. mad..hai.. den meet her she away leave mi behind.. sob sob.. dunno la... den stupid sherry say meet end up quarrel wif her father den nv come out.. lol... stupid sia...

2007-01-21T07:20:00.000-08:00

juz reach home... heart pain sia spend 70plus on cab last nite... took a cab down to meet jo.. den after take a cab down to parkway meet joey.. after tat mi and joey take cab down meet wei tack they all.. but dunno y joey du lan or wat end up i drop at DXO den she go home.. meet xinci awhile joey call ask mi go boat key.. den she uturn back fetch mi.. reach there i pay the cab fare.. hai.. go drink til 2plus and the stupid ger come sell the drink for wat.. hai mi waste 10dollar for the half mouth of the stupid thin.. joey stil say pay half half end up hai bu shi mi pay all.. den we go orchard plz at there til around 5 den take cab home wif joey she go the guy house den i go home cab fare i pay again... =( i broke!!!!!!!!!!!!! next time i dun wan brim so much money out le.... hai... wanted go for hair cut de but now... hai...

2007-01-20T04:36:00.000-08:00

it long since i last blog... think is time for mi to start bloggin again ba.. haha... now already 2007 think back i have wasted 1yr plus le doin nth.. hai... oso dunno wat i really wan in life... since now already 2007 think i should start everythin afresh ba... i miss my fren... sorry for turnin u all down everytime.. wil catch up wif u all soon.. haha... life is so meaningless now to mi... everyone around mi is workin and studyin yet mi?? din work for 2month plus 3month le... no income nth.. juz waitin for my aunt to give mi money every month.. wat is this sia.. wat is goin wrong with mi??? hai... and CNY comin i no money to buy new yr cloth... imposible to ask mi ask my aunt for money ma.. as in i already how old le... juz hope i can get a job soon ba... many thin happen in the startin of the yr.. but stil i wil be strong.. ya... anyway 2007 a new yr and there wil be a new mi too??? dunno...

2007 resolution:
- get my bike lic b4 my birthday
- save enough money for my hairdressin course
- have a new look?? haha
- get a stead?? lol...
- get a bike once i get my lic
- change my attitude?
- get a job and settle down wif it.. and stop keep changin job
and last
- c jo do well in her n level... so muz study hard ar... =)

2006-12-27T05:00:00.000-08:00

long time din blog le.. so many thin happen... i have lost so many thin tis few month.. but who noe?? not even my pig.. we had drift.... mayb it time for mi let go of tis frenship le... since u dunno how to cherish mi... holdin on it juz make mi hurt more... hai... i find my self really stupid... hai....

2006-11-10T01:49:00.000-08:00

long time nv blog le... anyway.... i am BROKE every one............. haha... who wan to be the kind soul................... lol................

2006-10-20T01:35:00.000-07:00

long time since last blog... birthday juz pass... hai... the most unhappiness birthday in my life.. hai.... first waste omost 4odollar of cab fare down to pairs ris and thin... say celebrate my birthday end up... hai.. dun say le... den went shijie house ton morin go court wif them.. after tat went work qaurrel wif the fucker... she cb i bad mood still keep kp mi.. den i ren til cannot ren scold her back.. she was like stun there la.. den i went home.. bath... den go meet pig again... pig pass the phone to mi for nth the cb short at mi.. den i short back at her la.. fuck.. my birthday keep give ppl kan.. wtf.. they bad mood i oso bad mood lo... cb... after tat 7plus went parkway meet qin and jie wei... dunno wat happen they suddenly cold war.. den 9 plus qin ask mi and jie wei go first den we two walk to chee hon house.. wait for him.. he fuckin the long la.. den jiewei go first den i wait for CH den we two walk to east coast find qin they al.. was really bore... at there sherry and chee hon cold war.. hai... all of us was like no mood la.. hai... den wait for rong shan to come.. cut cake and thin... den we take pic... i was like mad la.. keep disturb them til fight hor.. ke ai de baba... haha.. hai.. i really sad tat day la.. but who noe... hai... wat more can i say.. hai.. but i really enjoy myself at nite.. thank to qin quimei shan and sherry... dunno y my temper and attitude come back again le... hai... pig really disappoint mi alot on tat day.. hai...

2006-10-14T05:49:00.000-07:00

quite busy nowaday... too many date.. haha... but ya... blog when i free.. haha.. take care ppl....

2006-10-04T01:41:00.000-07:00

i'm so lost... everythin since like in a mess to mi... but who care... i'm so hopless.... wat more stil can i say... i am juz a failure.... i feel so hurt in mi... who noe??? juz feel like makin myself _________ everyday.... but if qui mei jie wei they all noe sure wil scold mi like hell... to pig think she wil juz say i disappoint her... or to her is juz nth... she not the pig i noe anymore.. hai... nvm la all the thin i wil juz keep it to myself ... hai.. have to pay my bil.. house bil need to pay $73 phone bill $355 and broad band bill $40.. total i need to pay $468 for all the bill... hai... think my phone they going to cut off again le... no money to pay.... work the money half is gone.. juz for the stupid bill.. another half my transport and eat... hai... sometime i thinkin y my money spend so fast... i oso nv do anythin.... hai... think i gonna stop being kind hearted anymore.... lost out is myself.... hai...

ass the stupid jasmine c i keep quiet keep bully mi izzit... fuck u man... say many thin behind my back u think i dunno... the wan yaya wan is dunno who lo... i tel u u better dun be so sia lan lo... i quiet doesnt mean anythin lo... u haven give ppl beat b4 izzit.... sia lan some more... u wil get it i tel u....

2006-10-04T00:54:00.000-07:00

No ones in the world can help u expect urself.
Human are always lonely. Cos they're borned to this world in a single body, with a single mind.

Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go.

Im nothing in this world. Who understand? :(

2006-10-01T01:01:00.000-07:00

tomolo going to start sch le... ya lo... last day of work today at bugis... how my life wil be next... my money really spend fast.. i got to control it le... pay bil return money half of my pay is gone... got to really think wat i want in life.. have no time to waste anymore... everythin wil change soon... think of many thin.. but ya lo... think i should go mia awhile... haha... dunno....

2006-09-29T00:04:00.000-07:00

tat is no where for mi... hai.. dunno y mi and pig become like so mo sheng... i juz got tat feelin... but ya lo... everythin drift.... fail my bike today again.. hai.. sat goin to take again... muz pass on sat... ya... sun last day of work.. den got to start sch le... hai... ya lo... hai.... i juz wish tat is someone wil oway by my side when i down.. lend mi thier shoulder to cry on... hai.. but there is no one... i can have many fren.. but which wan is really the ture fren to mi? sometime juz find myself silly.. for wat treat ppl so nice... hai.. dunno.. mayb my heart really too soft le... hai.. dunno...

2006-09-24T01:50:00.000-07:00

long time nv blog le.. went service today... service not bad.. my tear flowin down my durin worship... really feel like cryin out loud but i juz keep wipe away it lo.. ya... hai... from now have to save around 3k to buy sp when i get my lic.. wanted to save to buy vespa but it too ex... ya lo... a new chapter of life gonna start after 2oct... it wil be tough.. thinkin can i go through it... it take mi 3yr... can i go through this 3yr? who wil pull mi through the 3yr? hai... everythin wil change... wil mi and pig gonna drift apart? hai...everytime wan tel her thin but yet.. hai... tryin to catch up wif fren but ya lo... it juz seem tat all of us is busy wil own thin... everythin seen to drift away from mi... thinkin when i last saw my mum? 2 or 3 month ago? i am all alone at the road out there... birthday comin wil there be anyone celebratin wif mi? or i wil be juz alone staring at the sky up there? i dun hope for anythin i juz wan someone to care for mi love mi... hai... y did god wan give mi a soft heart... i dun wan it... i rather he create mi as a heartless person... hai..... i feelin so empty.... hai........ feel like cryin now but who care........... hai nvm.....

2006-09-16T16:48:00.000-07:00

hai... am i really so irritating??? hai... tis few day many thin happen.... feel so hurt when she ask mi dun keep bugging at her... hai.... din noe to her i'm so irritatin.. hai... today really no mood after see ing tat msg.. hai.. den after work went meet xinci.. have to act like normal.. hai... my soul is cryin in mi... hai.. den saw wendy at parkway.. ya... i really dunno wat to do.... my path of life is so blur tat i cant c anythin.... hai... i really goin mad.. stay at home nth to do kana lecture.. go out come home late oso kana lecture... can u tel mi wat u wan i really tired neither at home or outside... one more month my birthday.... thinkin who wil be celebratin wif mi.. who wil give mi the first wish... hai.... i'm juz a nobody to everyone...

2006-09-12T00:32:00.000-07:00

today finish work den come home le.. hai... noe dun come home so early... everytime stay at home got thin happen... tat y i dun like to stay at home.. hai... i rather alone sit at the void deck til everyone slp le den go home.. i hate my life my home.... he makin mi crazy.... dun force mi to do anythin.... hai....

2006-09-10T02:19:00.000-07:00

yesterday actually go club wan but everythin spoil... hai.. nvm.. den go gamble the horse lose so much.. and now i'm broke.. hui peng told mi many thin tat day.. hai...ya lo... many thin is going on and changin... ya lo... ron and charlene they two are wired.. lol... from sat til today every mornin give qui mei scold sia.. haha.. coz actually wan go enrol bike wan but den i too tried le.. omost ton everyday sia... hope tml i can wake up and go enrol if not the yong qui mei goin to enrol alone dun wan wait for mi le.... haha... tis few day really bad mood sia... hai... today work the auntie say mi.. but ya lo.. my fault.. hai.. think going to quit the job le ba... and pig msg mi say she lost the mp4.. hai... actually b4 she tel mi i oso noe who lost it.. but nvm la... lost already lost wat to do.... i juz think how much she really chreish tis frenship after i read her blog... IT MEANT TO BE LOST i read tis i feel disappointed and ...... hai... nvm la... think back those thin she told mi in the past... and those thin ppl told mi.. hai.. i oso dunno... heard many thin nowaday too.. think i should juz keep it all to myself... hope tue i can pass my basic theroy test.. wish mi good luck ba... and i need luck i wan to win back my money.... haha..... shi jie last count is on 15... hai.. hope he wil get the lightest sentance.... hai.....

2006-09-09T04:15:00.000-07:00

i'm here to blog again... anyway happy birthday to shijie.. hai.. the last birhday he gonna celebrate b4 go in.. sad.. hai.. many thin happen... dunno how many yr he wil be sentance.. but wil be a long wan.. hai.. sad... think i not gonna waste my time anymore gonna find one more job at nite wan.. anyone got lobang for club? juz wan to earn as much money as i can nw.. hai.. i feel so empty... can anyone fill somethin in it.. hai... tis few day keep give ppl say i bad mood... dunno.... i find tat i'm not the one i am as b4... going through so many thin.. but no one noe.. i learn somethin... hai.. am i going to change? heartless? no point being so nice to other.. hai.. sometime i juz find tat i really stupid for doin so much thin.. hai.. contiune tml goin down to meet hui peng now.. hai...

2006-08-23T00:09:00.000-07:00

many thin happen..aiya i oso dunno... haha.. slpless day tis two day.. dunno.. damn tried sia... i broke like hell la... kao... but nvm la... hai... think tis wil be my last blog le not goin to blog anymore...

in my darkest nite who wil be there... no one... ask everyone for help but all rejected mi.. hai.. wat is tis man.... i help ppl so much... end up wat i get... nth... i help them can but ask them to help mi they reject mi.. fuck off la... sometime i juz think y my heart so soft... y couldnt it be heartless??? hai... wif the softheart and the yi qi make mi end up like tis today.. hai..... everythin is really unfair to mi.. y?? hai... i hate my life... hai... now i broke no one is around mi when i got money everyone is around mi.. wat the... i'm juz stupid... shouldnt be so nice to ppl... hai...

pig ar pig.... we are driftin away.....

2006-08-16T03:10:00.000-07:00

nth much today.. wake up at 2plus.. den go bath den go interview... ya.. den wait for rongshan.. after tat we go grandlink meet qin and sherry... den mi shan qin sherry yongsien and his fren go geylang eat.. after tat we went east coast.. after tat den go home le... ya..

time really flies... now think back.. i have been wasting 10month doin nth... if i hao hao work think in this 10month i can earn 10 000 dollar sia... but too bad.... i keep quit those job if not kana fire... have been sis wif quimei(8yr) and shan(7yr) for so long le... going through up and down...time really flies... noe sherry for 9yr and qin for 10yr.. jiewei and ron 15yr... chee hon 7yr....xin ci 4yr.... and forgettin the other tat i oway hang out wif.. now realise tat all my fren tat i hang out wif all noe for yrs le.... haha... we are one big family..... haha... nonsense mi... haha.. anyway really thank to all oway be there....

2006-08-15T02:56:00.000-07:00

hmmm... tis few day nv blog.. let mi recal wat i do.. haha...

11/8/06
went work in the mornin.. quite slack.. i been slpin through out.. ya.. den went home bath den go meet pig pass her mp4.. den went tm meet quimei.. we but chee present.. dunno wat to buy.. den went 77street but the jacket... den went parkway meet shan and sherry.. den we take cab down to the charlet.. i stay there til 3plus den take cab home lo.. ya..

12/8/06
wake up in afternoon.. den went chee hon charlet.. on the way there he ask mi help him book the pit.. ya... was bore at there den apple they all playin mahjong.. ya.. den i go meet wei teck they all go joey there.. we on the way there suddenly dunno who cal and ask as dun need go le coz shi jie and joey quarrel.. den we all go back the charlet lo.. ya.. wah... le er they all all zheng ta le.. last time c them small small now.. haha.. ya.. chat around lo.. juz like a sec sch gatherin.. haha.. ya lo... den bbq and thin lo... after tat all go le left mi quimei and jie wei ron they all... slack lo.. den mi quimei darren junyong jiewei went mac.. den ron come find as den chee hon they all check out the charlet den go home le.. coz no body liao.. den we sit at mac til 4 den go home le.. ya..

13/8/06
slp til 3plus went parkway return eugene thin den after tat went home... den 5plus 6 go meet pig.. after tat went tm find qui mei.. den suddenly renee call mi i tot wat happen... she say jo find mi ask mi go find her... den go find my pig den we go eat after tat go find renee... ya.. i'm was bore there.. haha.. den pig ask mi go home first den i go lo.. den on the way to bus stop saw accident rite infront of mi la.. stupid... luck i nv cross the road sia... wanted to cross but nv... heng sia...

14/8/06
mornin went quimei house.. kao.. she stupid la.. off the phone den i was lock outside her house for 30min la.. den i keep knockin the door no one open.. finally her father open the door for mi.. haha... den go in the room watch tv til i slp la.. the show tat woman very ke lian... she kana shot by her bf and her face half gone... poor thin.. den slp til 3plus i wake up yong qui mei still slpin... den i watch tv again lo... den wait for her to wake up lo.. den we went tm eat pizza... den service there cannot make it.. haha.. after tat dunno wat to do.. decided to watch moive.. den saw ying ying den we ask her to join us.. coz she alone.. ya.. den we three went to watch the click... haha.. damn funny la the show.. haha... after tat we went swensens buy ice cream eat.. den after tat go shop around den go home le.. coz no where to go... den i go meet pig den they go home.. ya... dunno she drunk or wat sia... alamak... noe dun buy for her to drink... den renee call.. ya lo.. funny.. haha... thank to someone la.. hai mi kana blame by renee.. haha.. but nvm la... sit there til 11 den i fu her home den i oso go home le... ya... stupid renee better dun slap my pig hor... take care of her... dun make her sad....

2006-08-11T01:34:00.000-07:00

today wake up went sim lim find xin ci den help jo to take her mp4.. after tat went to tm find her lo.. den went to auntie house find eugene they all.. den mi eugene jiewei joe go eat den after tat mi eugene and joe went orchard tower.. they put tatoo.. ya.. wanted go but chee hon persent wan but ya lo.. haha... after tatoo den went home liao lo...

tomolo going work after tat go buy chee hon present den c how mayb at nite went to his charlet... ya...

sat
think wil at the charlet lo.. joey baby 1month den she ask us to go.. but dunno going not lei... c how ba... c whether chee hon they all going not lo.. if go den go together lo.. ya...

2006-08-10T02:50:00.000-07:00

today slp til 3plus... so many cal and msg... den keep wakin up... ya.. renee grandma pass away today.. sad.. hope renee is fine... ya.. actually wanted to go for cell group but cant wake up wake up le go back slp again... haha.. too bad.. den 9plus went parkway find chee hon they all... stupid wei teck keep disturb mi wif the tatoo.. den at there tok cock... den apple they all at there laught.. den apple help mi go say wei teck den wei teck disturb her den was like.. haha... after tat slack at mac.. den went eat pata.. after tat mi jiewei eugene and joe went to kenny house there slack den jeremy come find us.. ya... den jie wei say mi la.. y go put tatoo and thin... no money le stil put den wat bu hui use those money go buy cloth and thin.. waste money on tatoo.. hai... ya lo... den he keep blame eugene y brim mi go.. haha.. den tml eugene and joe going to put lei.. i dunno wan put anot.... thin not puttin le ba.. no money... den eugene say abt tatoo thin den jiewei keep scoldin him.. so funny.. haha.. den after tat go home le...

2006-08-09T03:40:00.000-07:00

hmmm... today went for interview after tat go meet shan n tai zi.. den wait for winson come take cigg.. after tat go home... ya.. den at nite went ya... den go parkway meet xinci.. after tat den go home.. juz read edric blog din noe church have change so much... N303 has been shuffled into N349 and W312... and many thin... ya... miss the ex E315... many thin has been changin... sun went for service c darrion in n349 i was shock la... haha.. he very fan la.. keep tokin to mi... non stop.. haha... now n349 got many ppl i noe le.. should i go back church.. haha.... tml goin for cell group.. ya... i dunno y pig so sad... she cry... she cry becoz of mi.. hai.. sorry pig... dun ever cry for mi anymore k... silly pig..... she cry for hour plus la.. den renee cal mi she cryin oso... dunno y she cry oso... she cal mi ask mi wat happen... den tel mi pig cryin coz of mi... den she speak very soft dun really hear her.. but nvm la... hai.. i dunno... sorry.... thinkin... am i wrong to put the tatoo??? hai... but ya lo... put already put... dun think too much... haha....

to zhuo ran...
u all oway say i nv think of my future and plan... even i plan wat i wan to do den how.. i onli can dream on it... i not like u all... our life is diff we livin in diff world... u wont understand wat i have been going through... think if now mi u shiqi and wanzhi meet out.. mi and u three oso nth to tok abt.. i will be juz like out of topic... and feelin weird... i noe u all care for mi but.... everytime i met shi qi she wil be leture and leture and leture mi... anyway juz work hard for ur future.. u will have a good future... dun care so much for mi.. my life is juz destroyed... sorry.. i let u down...

2006-08-08T00:41:00.000-07:00

today went pig house there meet her.. den went to tm... after tat went to tamp mart... saw renee there so ya.. after tat went to a play ground.. hai... noe dun show pig my tatoo... hai... after she c she say i bluff her.. i dunno wat i bluff her... den her face change la.. i noe i make her disappointed.. sorry... hai.. den sit at the playground awhile den she wan go home... den hai.. mi and renee find her la.. cant find.. den renee saw her went up to 28.. so we take cab down to her house there... find her... den renee cal her house den pig bro meet pig so ya.. waited for pig... hai.. dunno y she so angry wif mi... hai... i feel so bad la.. renee nv do anythin oso kana say by pig den she ask her go home... hai... all my fault.... noe dun go back search for her juz now den thin wil not happen.... hai... search for her still kana say by her... wat the... now she ignore mi la... hai... nvm la... becoz of a tatoo she like tat... hai.... sad... hai..........................................

2006-08-05T02:14:00.000-07:00

today went bugis interview after tat went rongshan house den went tampines meet taizi... ya... den we wait for ah long and zhihong to come.. ya.. after tat mi shan taizi went 201 eat.. eat le i go auntie house find chee hon... den after tat went to kenny house there find wei teck they all.. haha.. ya... they stupid la.. plan tue go newton and thin la... wat the... haha.. ya... slack til 2 like tat den go home le... tml going suntec, tampines sec de concert den dunno liao... ya...

2006-08-04T01:08:00.000-07:00

today went xin ci house.. den wanted to find job but the person cal her den nv go find liao...so at her house play game watch tv.. den go parkway.. on the way there walk to shan house take cigg.. ya... reach parkway den pei xinci go look for her thin.. ya.. den shan come meet us.. den we juz slack at parkway lo.. ya.. i have no mood the whole day coz of the pig.. but i have to act nth have happen... den 5plus sherry come find us.. den 6 shan and xin ci go home.. left mi and sherry... we juz sit at mac.. ya.. den saw shu ren.. stupid keep disturb mi and thin.. haha.. hai.. findin the pig the whole day and she dun wan tel mi where she.. i was like damn worry la... i dunno wat to do la.. msg her she was like hack my msg... hai... den meet wendy go down find the pig.. kao.. my phone was like flat la.. and i was like wat the.. i was tellin wendy where to meet and thin.. and my phone flat til cannot flat la.. den i hopin shu ren still at classic la so i went there and he was not there.. den i go to the hp shop lend charger.. heng i noe the person there.. i was like damn paiseh la.. at first they tot wat happen la den i say i wan lend charger.. den i faster charge my phone awhile den faster cal wendy.. take cab down find her den go pig house... ya... hai... think i should'nt go down... i was like.. hai.. nvm.... sit the cab sit til wan vomit la den reach home vomited and lao sai.. dunno y... hai... i really dunno how i can help u.. can u tel mi how can i help u... hai.... i feel i am juz like a idoit la... hai... dunno y i very sad... no one noe... hai... forget it.. everythin wil juz ended from now... u spoil my mood..... hai.. nvm la.. anyway tml going down bugis v interview.. hope i can get the job.. hai... take care everyone.. mayb from next month or mid of this month u guy cant get mi le.. hope nth wil happen to mi ba... hai....

2006-08-02T01:45:00.000-07:00

today slp til 3plus wake up... noe wake up bath le faster go out.. my cousin come back kana lecture by him.. wat the... from 4plus say til 6plus... i was like.. sit there dun wan to say anthin la.. coz i noe i say wat i oway wrong so choice to keep quiet.. ya.. nag mi at my bil and thin la.. kao... i become like tat today partly oso u all de fault... nvm.. juz now omost wanted to run away from home.. but ya lo... u say i nv give my mum anythin but have u think at my side.. from small til now wat she given mi... u all onli noe how to say mi.. have u ever c b4 wat i have done or treatin her.. no.. juz heard wat ppl say.. but forget la.. i'm oway wrong.. y ppl can have a home but i cant... hai... my life is juz SUX... no one understand mi.. no one noe wat i really wan... hai... after he lecture finish i faster go out la.. if not he got somethin to say again... went meet pig.. ya... ask her dun cut herself le but she stil cut.. hai... when will you stop cuttin ueself??? stop hurtin urself??? pig ar pig.... i wont break the promise k.. dun worry.. even i die i wil stil by ur side k... 9plus she need go home den i go home oso.. lucky reach home he slp le.. ya... den eat my dinner den online.. ya...

i'm

useless

hopless

aimless

failure

my life is meaningless

and

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2006-08-01T01:47:00.000-07:00

hmmm... today went parkway.. eat BK breakfast wif xinci... ya..eat le wait for rong shan to come... thank ar.. disturb mi again... ya.. den we went to classic.. den suddenly jie wei kenny come... ya... den den go play pool... ya... after tat jie wei go c doctor.. den we go hot shot.. fuck.. waste money on the stupid thin again.. haha... den after hot shot... go top up my ez link... stupid saw chee n ron we was like.. opp each other and we shortin.. haha.. coz rainin cannot cross over.. haha.. den after top up den find them.. so funny... den we went hot shot again.. haha... stupid chee hon keep sayin xinci.. so funny... haha... after tat went xinci house... ya.. help her think where she gonna put her thin and thin.. how much u gonna pay mi xin ci.. for carryin those thin... lol... after darren come back i when rongshan house... ya... 11plus den go home le.. kao.. went go home tat time saw taizi fren he abit siao wan sia... shan tel mi.. he really a bit siao la.. so late still alone standin outside the house dunno do wat.. i was like so scare...

2006-07-31T01:39:00.000-07:00

fri
mornin meet pig brin her go c doctor den pei her go NTUC den after tat when xinci house... den go eat after eatin went meet sherry at parkway.. slack awhile den go home le..

sat
wake up at 2plus bath den sit at there thinkin whether wan go for service not... den nv go go back to slp.. slp til 5plus.. wake up.. go meet sherry and qin.. waited for them damn damn long la.. i c finish firework they haven ok la.. haha.. den cal them den we meet at bus stop traffi jam like siao la.. haha.. ya.. den mi and sherry go parkway den we keep thinkin wan go club not.. end up nv go... ya lo.. sian.. den at parkway eat play pool den go home...

sun
wake up go meet pig... den pei her take cab to sch den i went parkway.. sian reach there sherry and hui qin den tel mi meet later.. kao.. den i went xin ci new house.. haha...den 5 went town meet sherry and her fren.. stupid la sherry.. keep disturbin mi.. wat the.. haha... den 8plus 9 they go home den i go find pig.. ass la.. she disturb mi oso la... make mi so paiseh la.. and her stead was like keep laughtin there la... so funny... big mouth pig... haha... wat the... haha... den afternoon shan call she ask mi tat guy got cal mi den i say no.. den taizi listen disturb mi.... haha... xinci oso la... haha... kao.. today like so mamy ppl disturb mi la...

HaPpY bElaTeD BiRThdAy xUe LinG

2006-07-28T02:21:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. today go tampines meet pig.. she really pig la.. say 1130 end up she 12 den wake up.. den i saw like 11 like tat reach liao la.. so walk around la.. den go find quimei... ya.. den meet pig at poly clinic she sick wan c doctor but the clinic close and have to wait til 130 she dun wan to wait so go eat.. eat le went to her stead sch outside wait for her stead.. ya.. den ya lo.. sit opp the sch wait for pig fren to come.. den 3 like tat go le.. her fren go for her cca den one go home den pig go home den i go for my basic theory test.. fail again.. sian... think really cannot laught ppl sia.. tat time i laught at sze ngee and now my turn.. haha... den after tat went to xin ci house... her puppy so cute la.. got 5... stay at her house awhile den go eat.. eat le go meet sherry at her house there... den slack at her house awhile den went parkway play pool.. den went home le... sian.. my life is bore.. like doin the same thin everyday... go parkway slack play pool slack den go home.... no life sia... think i gonna do somethin to it sia.. haha... juz waitin for the traininship den i wan go apply... haha.. ya.. dunno y feel so happy now.. juz thinkin of somethin.. lol.. nvm.. haha... nonsense mi.. haha...

2006-07-27T01:35:00.000-07:00

hmm.. today went xinci house in mornin den take cab to shan house fetch shan den went parkway.. ya... slack at there lo... 6plus taizi ask shan to go home sian left mi and xinci.. we go eat.. den taizi cal mi to help him do somethin.. ya... den i help lo.. went find his fren take the somethin and is like they nv wrap the thin and ya la.. den muz meet taizi another to take but he 8 den can and i need to go le.. so tat guy fetch us to shan house to put those thin.. in the car so fuuny la wif tat stupid guy lame joke.. haha...we was like laughtin like mad.. and i so scare the driver wil go bang the infront car la.. he was laughtin like mad too.. haha.. den after put the thin le the guy send xinci go darren house and send mi go kallang airport.. ya.. in the car those nonsense start again and we laught like mad again.. haha... those laughter juz let mi forget abt many thin.. haha... dunno y it brighten up my day.. haha... ya.... den meet sherry.. slack at her house there.. den shan cal and tel us those thin hai mi so scare when i walkin home... den mi and sherry was like so funny dun dare to anyhow throw thin and pui kou sui and thin la.. haha... when i walkin home i keep wanted to look behind but i scare... i feel somethin like around mi... i c my shadow and i scare like later got one more shadow la.. i was like... and somemore i juz dream of my grandma last week la... ya.. anyway thank to xinci ar.. hai mi waste 10dollar on acarde and change 3 polipop... haha... nv eat b4 so ex de polipop sia.. 3 poplipop cost mi 10dollar... lol....

Life's,

a two way traffic .

I've got more than what i deserved but less than what i desire...

Theres alot of unexpected things in life . unseen tears;untold memories;unexpected fears.

BUT thats life .

2006-07-25T10:55:00.000-07:00

hmmm... today was bore.... stupid pig wake mi up... coz of the stupid tatoo thin... they wanted go bugis put but there they can put coz underage.. den they cal mi lo.. den i ask joey and shi jie where can put lo... they say pennisula.. den pig they all go there and put lo... den i went down find them lo... stupid pig shouted so loud la.. i reach there i outside the shop oso can hear her voice.. ya lo.. den after tat they went tm meet thier fren den i go meet joey and shi jie lo.. pei them brim the baby go c doctor.. the baby so cute la... haha... den after tat went joey house.. den 5plus pei shi jie go sell phone.. but end up nv sel coz the price damn low.. lol.. den after tat go home liao lo.. ya....

2006-07-25T00:33:00.000-07:00

have quited the job yesterday coz of the fuckin mc wif out a stamp.. den have a fight wif the manage.. after the fight i juz write the resignation letter and give it to her la.. ya lo.. den after work went to meet pig.. den after tat went to changi meet sherry.. go charlet.. we was like damn bore la.. den the stupid liwei keep disturb us wif those ghost thin... kao.. make us damn scare la.. some more the charlet look huarted la.. kao... after tat li wei and the who leave le left mi and sherry.. i was like damn damn tired and damn damn cold over there la... ya.. den mornin went home.. i reach home bath le den went to xin ci house alamak she ask mi to play the stupid game.. damn funny la.. den she was like at there laught like mad.. haha... den around 3plus we went to parkway eat after tat went to NTUC coz she wan buy thin.. she was like damn ma fan la buy a thin.. haha.. after tat she when home den i wait for qin to come den we went to east coast... wait for sherry liwei and edwin.. den celebrate liwei birthday lo.. ya.. after tat den mi and qin take cab home le.. ya...

2006-07-23T03:22:00.000-07:00

today mc nv go work.. ya... wanted to go for cg but i cant wake up.. ya lo... den went for service.. but dunno y i damn pekcek the whole afternoon la... hai... nvm.... den after service stay until 9plus den went parkway find xinci they all lo... den we went to smoke the sea sa... ya... den after tat go home le.... ya... hai... i feel so lonely nowaday... i oso dunno.... wat is life? think i gonna stay away from all the ppl... hai... i'm juz a nobody.... cry to myself it all i can do.... when i am gone from this world who will remember mi... no one... hai... i wan go back church like last time i do.. but dunno y now i go church i wil feel wired and very uncomfortable.... like there is somethin on mi... but i dunno how to say out the feelin.. hai.. nvm.. think i oso wont go to church le... think i anytime wil juz break down... too many thin is happenin... at home and outside.... i'm juz a fu dan at home if not.... hai... y cant i juz have a family like other... have thier own house and thin... if god can give mi a family... i dun mind is poor... i juz wan those happiness love and care... but... hai... think if dun have mi and my bro my aunt wil have a easy life... and wont have so much worry.. hai.... have mother like dun have like tat... father? i dun even treat him as one... onli brim trouble to us... wat more can i say abt him... hai.. many thin is unfair to mi.. but wat can i do.... go thru it wif those... hai.......

2006-07-22T04:12:00.000-07:00

today wake up go c doctor.. coz dun wan go work... haha.. den doctor give mi today and tml mc.. haha.. waited so long la at poly clinic... noe ask for room 3.. i noe the doctor.. coz is my cousin lao gong... haha...den after c doctor go eat.. den mi and xinci dunno wan go where.. den go play pool.. after tat dunno wan go where so i cal chee hon den we go hot shot find them.. den after we go fish.. catch no fish... wat the.. was bore plus funny... haha... ya... den the whole nite dunno who keep say til leong seng... hai.. ya lo.. at coast rhu there think til him.. he oway like to go there PG... still remember last time he and darren was there sayin abt the condo... ya... if he still around.. hai nvm... seng we nv forget u even til now.. everythin we do we wil think of u.. hope u can be wif us.. but.. hai... after fishin den go home le.. ya... sit ron bike i scare la.. coz so long nv sit bike le... haha... ya....

2006-07-20T01:11:00.000-07:00

tue actually meet xin ci for breackfast but i cant wake up.. ya lo.. den meet her at 12 plua go parkway eat mos den play pool den i cut hair... the hair dresser like fuck la.. anyhow cut my hair.. omost have a fight wif her la... nb.... first time cut hair til like tat sia...forget it.. cut alresy cut... hai.. ya.. den after tat we when town to interview.. haha.. funny sia... after tat xinci go home i go tampines... pig meet mi at 8 but i 6plus reach there liao... den i cal tiffany come down pei mi la.. sit at her blk down stair tok.. haha..ya.. den when pig house en take cab to janelle house... after tat go home le... omost spend 100 dollar la... dunno spend on wat.. fuck.. nvm la.. happy can le...

today wanted to take mc and dun go work wan but... ya lo... damn tired la.... quitin le.. last day of work is on 7.. ya lo.... after work den go home le... nv go anywhere.... btw anyone noe where buy phone cheap ma....?

haiyo... pig nv go sch for 3day liao...dunno wat happen to her la...one day she in ger home den she noe.. lost freedom and many thin.... when the day come think she wil cry la..... ya lo.. dunno her... dun trust ur fren to much la... c a person who u call sis oso wil do those thin to u... wat tat man.... enemy wil become good fren and good fren wil become enemy... and i beleive in this phase la.. haha.... ya.....going to write my resign letter now... stop here le ba....

2006-07-18T01:21:00.000-07:00

hmmm... yesterday went work... not many ppl at nite.. good good.. i like.. haha... hmmm... den after work go meet pig den went meet her stead den after tat go home le... ya...

today go work.. fuck early in the mornin kana nag.. siao wan sia.. den got a fight wif my manager... she keep say mi.. wat the... den i throw all my attitude at her.. she tok to mi i dun wan ans her and thin.... den she touch mi den i swing her hand away.. den she was like... nag mi even more.. den jia yin was shock la.. haha... work til i get my pay i going to quit le.. so nvm... i oso hack.. i onli wan my pay.. hmmm... savin money now... to go bangkok or malaysia wif daphne and shop... haha... but ya lo.. i'm oway broke... miss those day tat i really got many money.. but now.. hai... nvm.... tml meetin xinci eat breakfast.. haha... den mayb go find job den go meet pig... ya....

2006-07-16T04:18:00.000-07:00

today work damn busy... ya... my body achin like hell.. hai... after work actually wan meet pig wan but i broke cant go if go later need to take cab home no money.. ya... sorry pig... hai... den when parkway meet qin and sherry den we head down to east coast.. ya...den around 2plus go home le lo.. ya... hai... realise somethin.... ppl need help from mi is easy but when i need help no one is there to help... hai.... wat the... really very disappointed..... hai.. think i can juz stop beenin nice to other le... stop been so kind.... i'm juz stupid... hai.... there is no one out there tat i can tel my problem to... i can onli keep all to myself.... no one care for mi... no one understand mi.... hai.... nixi told mi i'm someone tat dunno how to express my self... tat oway hide all my feelin in mi.... tat hai... dunno... think she rite... hai..... life is gettin worst for mi... but who noe... who care... hai.... i'm lost in my path.. lost in everythin... i'm juz a loser in life.... hai..... i juz need someone tat can be my side guidin my path.... listen to my problem and thin... is tat so hard... hai... nvm.....

2006-07-14T11:58:00.000-07:00

wah..... today damn suay la.. early in the morning wan go work walk down the stair first step fall down all the way down... damn pain la.... stupid....now my whole body hand leg damn pain la.... kao... pain is killin mi... i need healin... pray for mi...... haha....

2006-07-14T00:39:00.000-07:00

today went work... very busy.. sian... den go meet xin ci when break time.. went down pairs ris... stupid can... lol... the fram... kao... den late for work.. luck the shuan not in.. if not he nag at mi.. haha.. ya....i hate my hand la.. work until my hand now like ah ma de hand like tat... den today open beer dunno y kana cut.. den go clear bowl kana cut again.. den kana burn too.. damn pain la... wat the.... i'm so broke.... juz waitin for my pay... when can i take my pay...... hai.... think now go out oso got problem sia.... i hate there is no money wif mi... is like hell la... dunno y this few day like very suay like tat sia.... god bless mi....

realise tat i have wasted alot of time after i am out of the sch... wasted 7month plus like tat doing nth.... onli noe how to slack go out slp....if the 7month plus i go work think i wont become wat i am today.... but everythin is too late le... so now i gonna work for everythin i want.. work for my dream.... ya....

2006-07-12T23:37:00.000-07:00

hmmm... today went work was tiring... do alot of thin... stupid sia... really stupid la... the phone ring den i dun wan pick up den the bang there oso dunno wan pick up.. end up shaun ask us to fellow wat he say... damn funny... haha.... after work den go home le.. ya... think i changin to part time le.. wif he dun let den after this month i take my pay den i run liao.. haha... tml going interview wif xin ci.. haha... dunno.... ya..... think i going back to study le.. mayb go higher nitec den after higher nitce den go learn hair dressin.. ya...

2006-07-12T01:21:00.000-07:00

today i off... wake up at 12plus.. den go meet xinci.. go parkway.. pei her go punk eye brown den go cut hair... den go in parkway walk.. i wan buy so many thin but no money.. haha... den went bugis... stupid noe dun go.. saw so many thin i like... but cant buy.. sad... haha... i wan to buy the bag at icon... but abit ex la... 62.90... wat the... i broke... no money to buy thin le.. til i get my pay... after bugis we went to hong kong street and eat... after tat walk to xinci house.. damn far la... den i at her house til 10plus 11 den go home le... ya.... when i get my pay think i gonna shop like mad... lol...

Life is full of pain, but does it ever get better? Will people ever care about each other, and make time for those who are in need each of us has a part to play in this great show we call life. Each of us has a duty to mankind, to tell our friends we love them. If you do not care about your friends, you will not be punished you will simply be ignored forgotten as you have done to others...

i will ignore u like how u ignore mi... beenin so nice to u it juz pointless... dun blame my heartless....

i juz wan a simple life fill wif love and care....... i have been drifted away from many of my fren and thin... how can i drift them back... i'm lost in my path....

2006-07-10T00:13:00.000-07:00

today nv go anywhere.. went work den break go hospital c my aunt den go work again... after work den go home le... sian.. now i like cannot off on sat or sun... think i goin to change to part time le.. full time the hours too long.. i no time to rest or even go out... haha... too tiring workin full time.. think i wan go find other job... think i cant stay there for long.. i already cant stand it le.. but i bi myself to go work everyday... til i get a better job ba... tired tired... hmmm... sun they got bbq... i cant go.. sad.. got to work.... wat the.... sian sian sian.... stupid pig got stead dun wan mi le... lol.... chong sir qing you... haha... i nv find her she dunno how to find mi.. stupid.....

2006-07-09T03:36:00.000-07:00

juz reach home... go watch movie wif qin sherry sherry bro n his fren at shaw town... den saw jie wei darren wei teck hong wen n eugene there.. we watch the same movie.. haha... re cycle.. haha... not very nice the movie... after tat jie wei they all go ah de chalet i nv fellow.. ya.. den sherry bro n his fren go plsy pool.. left mi qin sherry... dunno wan go where... den qin call liwei they all wanted to go roundin but they nv pick up the phone.. den we sit at shaw towner outside til 2plus den go home.. reach qin house liwei they all den call back.. wat the... haha.. nvm... afternoon went service.. feel so so wired la in church.. i oso dunno y.. go n349 ya den was like i dunno the ppl there la.. onli noe nixi..den she ask mi go sit wif the ger i was like so peiseh la.. haha... den the ger come sit wif mi... ya.. den marg cel was lik infront of mi.. so many new ppl in her cell omost all guy.. haha... dunno... after service nixi come tok to mi.. and help mi pray.. she say the thin oso rite la.. hai.. i was like dunno wat to say la.. den i keep sayin i wan go le and wat.. i juz dunno how to face it... hai... i oso dunno... u r rite i dunno how to express myself... all the thin u say r rite... hai.. dunno....

life has been meaningless to mi... many thin i dunno how to face it.. oso dunno wat happen to mi... hai... feel so wried nowaday... i oso dunno y... hai.... wat happen to mi.... where all my fren go... hai... suddenly feel tat my fren all not by my side... was like i'm all alone by myself... hai... dunno.... when den i can step out from my fear.... i dun have the courage.. hai.... there is no one for mi out there.....

2006-07-08T01:34:00.000-07:00

been workin for the pass few day... damn tired la.. work 10 to 10plus.. lucky tml i off... the boss let mi off for church.. but onli this week onli... =( next week got to work.. sian.. i wan change job.....this job work until my body all achin... plus damn damn tired la... my both hand achin like hell la... hmmm.. when can i take back my mp4 sia.. they service damn long sia.. one week plus liao still haven ok.. tml muz can n check.... later they bluff mi... haha.... tml wat should i do.... go cg den hospital den go service.. or go hospital go tm den go service... haha.... dunno.. c tml wat time i wake up ba...
haha.. realise somethin pig stead look like daphne stead la... they look alike.. lol.. onli one more ger and one damn damn dao n attitude... pig.. ask ur stead to jump more.. haha...say i short she more more short la... stupid u.. u think u very tal meh... oway say mi short.. haha... find somethin damn er xin la.. haha.. nvm.. should not say out...

2006-07-05T01:56:00.000-07:00

monday
went meet kai yan and ah wei at bugis.. den after tat we went down hospital... my cousin msg mi say my auntie transfered room.. den we three was like.. dinf the whole hospital la.. from blk 4 to 5 to 6 to 7... den i cal my cousin den we waited for them to come.. ya... end up my aunt still at ICA room... haha.. ya.. den mi kai yan ah wei take pic.. so funny... den we laught til very loud.. after tat my cousin they all go home den i go tampines find pig... waited for her so long at her house down stiar la.. end up went to janelle house find her.. ya.. after tat take cab wif them.. send her stead off first... so funny in the cab when pig sent her stead up.. lol... the driver... lol.. den sent pig home den i go auntie house pass chee hon his ic.. den mi n sherry go east coast.. ya... we tok so many thin la.. haha...from family to fren to stead to ya... lol.... din noe i'm influnce to u so much... lol... but is good la.. at least u wont turn bad... shan.. din noe u cry when u read my blog til sherry tel mi.. lol.. den 4plus go mac eat breadfast.. after eatin den when to beach again n tok.. stupid sherry say my expectation too high.. ask mi to lower down it.. wat nonsense.. lol... i oso dunno.. haha.. den 6plus we take cab home..

today
wake up go meet xinci at parkway... ya... den 5plus darren come fetch her den i go auntie house find chee hon lo.. was bore there... i'm waitin for pig... but end up nv meet her.. noe i go hospital.. but nvm la... den at auntie house watch tv lo... den chee hon they all playin mahjong... den apple on the mo gui zai sheng bian the vcd i watch.. damn nice la.. haha... 10 plus go meet sherry at kallang airport eat.. suay.. i wan eat the wat den saw shu li n shi chuan den i duno wan eat le den i was like wanted to walk away dun let them c mi n sherry but.. i din noe jing xuan they all at there oso.. den jing xuan called mi so loud.. and all start to call mi.. den disturb mi.. wat the... den shi chuan they all dunno say wat i like dunno who.. they siao wan.. damn paiseh la.. even those dunno mi at there sayin oso.. siao.. den after tat go le go find other thin to eat.. walk walk walk.. den saw sherry father at there drinkin.. wat the.. damn suay la.. aiyo.. haha.. after eatin sit awhile den go home le.. ya...

2006-07-03T02:12:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. today wake up no one at home.. so sweep n mop floor den go down hospital.. reach there no one there den i try my luck go food count c weather my cousin they all there ma.. ya they was there... den i go eat oso.. den after tat my cousin drive my uncle back home and rest first.. den i juz stay there alone lo.. wait for pig.. coz she going hospital oso.. ya.. den i went up wait lo.. sit outside coz cannot go in the room.. ya.. den at there listen to wat ppl tok.. lol.. ya.. den my first uncle and his wife come.. after awhile they leave den i alone again... around 5 my 4th auntie come.. and my two cousin.. ya.. haha.. finally find tat i better den one of my cousin... =x.. haha.. at least i got a ite cert and she dun even have a n level cert.. lol.. she put tatoo.. wat the.. some more her tatoo not nice wan.. haha.. and so long nv c her le she become until...... lol... think i nicer den her... lol... den after awhile mei juan and ah wei come.. den we went down buy somethin n eat.. ya... den all ppl come le.. ya... den juz sit there tok lo.. coz onli two ppl can go in the room.. ya...ah hui.. go do somethin wif ur hair.. lol.. den after tat went parkway find jie wei n sherry... at k box.. ya... den jie wei go take mc den rongshan come.. den 11plus she go le.. left mi n sherry waitin for jie wei to come back.. ya.. haha... after tat we go eat.. ya... den go home le..

2006-07-01T23:24:00.000-07:00

today go interview... after tat go hospital... reach there i went c my aunt den after tat go out and sit at there.. den very tired slp there.. haha.. til my bro come he wake mi up.. ya.. den when eat dinner wif my auntie they all.. i kana lecture.... sian... everyday kana lecture la... stupid.. haha.. den my second anut give mi 20dollar.. ya.. everyone was like askin mi go work and thin la... they helpin mi to look out oso la.. my 4th aunt got intro mi job but all i dun wan.. =x haha... ya lo... den my second uncle wife was like askin mi not to go work first.. stay at home take care my uncle n thin la... ya.. i oso dunno... haha... today so many ppl cal mi out.. but i cant go out... i can go out den no wan ask mi out.. wat the... haha.. nvm la... stupid la... today go interview kana shoot by the person... she say mi.. u r a christian n u smoke... tot the bible say we r not allow to dun wat duno wat la.. stupid la.. and i was like.... haha... nvm... hmmm.. ya lo... think tml going hospital le den go meet pig.... hope my cousin tml go work....... lol...... stupid him... make my life so......... hope he faster move house la... i so broke nowaday la.... hopin money can drop down by the sky.. lol....

2006-06-30T22:35:00.000-07:00

today nv go any where.. brin my mp4 go service den go hospital lo.. reach there no one was there.. ya...den i call my cousin den they come down... den they reach le they in c my aunt den i go in too... i cal my aunt she cry.. den ah wei help her wip away her tear coz she cant move.. ya... can c tat she is sufferin from those pain.. hai.... ya... den at nite go home... b4 i go i take money from my mum to top up ez link la.. den kana say by my second auntie.. haha.. den reach home my cousin wife give mi 40 dollar.. first time sia.. haha.. noe y.. i ask her y give mi money she say.. i like so ke lian go around ask for money.. wat the.. haha... mei juan wan lend mi money.. but i dun wan.. ya lo... still haven get a job yet.. die no money le.. tml going for the interview.. wish mi good luck ba... juz kana lecture by my cousin.. haha... anyway he say de thin oso rite la.. dunno.. haha.. my attitude very nagative meh... haha... family is very important.. they are the one who away help u... dunno...

2006-06-30T02:41:00.000-07:00

Oh, Why You Look So Sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through'cause
I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
So if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'cause even if you're wrong
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

2006-06-29T11:30:00.000-07:00

today nth much to blog ba.. stay at home.. den 4 go hospital... den at there til at note lo.. den come home... reach home around 9plus ba... ya... hai... wendy called mi find pig... after she hang awhile pig sis msg mi ask mi whether i wif her not... so i msg her.. but she din reply mi.. hai... dunno wat she doin nowaday... hai.... so worry for her la.. so late liao dunno where she go sia..... pig ar pig ar pig.. wat happen to u??????

2006-06-28T22:08:00.000-07:00

today 4plus go for interview... den saw mr tan.. he tel mi many thin la.. hai... den after interview go hospital again.. hai.. so many ppl cry today.. everyone was like so sad.. hai... seein my auntie like tat... hai.... y muz this happen?????? hai.... nowaday i go anywhere oso alone.. n i dun like it la.. hai.. but no choice.... my life is tough now... hai.. and i feel i'm weak.. no one is there for mi to count on too.. hai... my mother called mi juz now... she ask mi to look after my uncle n thin la... she asked mi a que... if my auntie pass away(touchwood) where i going to live.... hai... where i going to live? hai... frm small i juz like a ball kick here n there... hai.. dunno... seein my aunt like tat my heart is juz achin.. hai... wan cry out but i cant.. coz i dun wan to cry in front of them... hai... my life is juz in a mess.... nth go well for mi nowaday... hai.... y is thin happen n happen again... y cant i juz live a peaceful life... where is those happiness go to? god is really unfair to mi... hai... pig ar pig.. where u?? hai... think u oso dunno wat is happenin until u read my blog everytime.. hai... nvm la.... now everyday i juz got to fake a smile out from my face la... who noe i'm sad... no one... not even a person care... even my pig... hai....

2006-06-28T03:13:00.001-07:00

today went take my pay... after tat go buy mp4.. spend omost 3/4 of it la.. n now i onli left 100 wif mi.. damn broke.. tis month think my aunt cant give mi money le.. coz she in hospital... n i gonna use the 100dollar until i got a job n next pay.. ya... hai.. now everyone was worry abt my aunt.. she in ICU now.... and is not going well... very sad la... hai... my cousin cry juz now la.. second time c him cry la.. first time is when my grandma pass away n today.. ya.. hai... den juz now in hospital i was like the onli children there la.. den my mother hai mi la.. go complain thin.. den all my aunt n uncle nag at mi.. like wat la.. stupid... like so many thin happen in the family la.. so many ppl get sick n thin.. hai... think i got to find a job n hao hao work le... cannot play anymore... if not i going to die.... i cant let them worry for mi anymore... i noe all of them care for mi but i'm juz let them down la in the way.. hai.. i oso dunno.... hai.... now i really very scare n worry la... hai... god pls dun let anythin happen to my aunt..... hai.... i need to be strong.... n i cant let them down anymore... not anymore.. hai... i feel so tried and yet i gonna go through those thin around mi.... hai... livin in the dark n endless road....
juz now went to meet pig and pass her her present.... ya... when going home... i suddenly feel so scare.. i oso dunno y... anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U PIG.....
God i willing to do anythin or even pay my life for her.... pls dun let anythin happen to her... pls let her wake up from her coma and take away all the sickness from her body..... hai.... y muz you let her suffer those pain.... hai........... juz hopin for a MIRACLES to fall on her... nth we can do now.. but we need MIRACLES.....

2006-06-27T00:33:00.000-07:00

today think nth much to blog ba... wanted to go find job.. but end up mi and sherry go eat and play pool.. den come tjr slack awhile.. after tat send sherry n jie wei to bus stop.. sherry go home den jie wei need to book in lo.. den i go home.. at nite qui mei cal mi ask mi wan go geylang eat not.. but i cant.. sad.. sian... my aunt in hospital again... ya... tat all ba..

2006-06-25T10:54:00.000-07:00

hmmm... yesterday din go anywhere juz slack at parkway the whole day.. 4plus meet rongshan at my house downstiar den wait for jie wei to come.. he pei ron n darren go buy sticker paste bike.. ya.. den after tat rongshan go meet taizi den jie wei go home first den he ask mi go parkway first.. den i go parkway meet pig awhile den go auntie house find cheehon.. den slack at auntie house awhile lo.. den 8plus we two go parkway find them.... den go play pool den qin n sherry reach parkway le they wanted come up but in the lift there they saw weiteck they all den they disturb they two la.. den up i go down find them lo... den eat mac.. den after tat jie wei come find us.. den sit there tok lo.. tok alot of rubbish.. haha.. after tat jie wei go find weiteck they all den mi sherry qin go play pool lo.. play awhile jie wei they all all go play pool oso den we play til 11 plus. wanted go east coast drink but rainin.. den we sit at mac.... den jie wei they all come down so funny.. jie wei make us laught like mad la.. haha.. den after tat they go watch soccer den we go 7 11.. den sit at the coffee shop tok til 3plus 4.... den take cab go sherry house... slack at her house til 6 plus den go home le... den today slp til 3 den wake up.. den my auntie sick... ya.. den 4plus jie wei call mi ask mi go downstiar pei him.. den i go lo... ya... nth much today... everyone is so broke now la.. haha...

2006-06-24T02:46:00.000-07:00

hmmm... today.. early in the moring meet dong yu den meet eugene go bei leong seng.. hai.. sad.. den stupid two of them keep disturb mi la.. den after tat we go eat beardfast den go home le.. den i at home.. den afternoon go interview den meet sherry eat.. eat le go home.. den at nite go out again.. aiyo.. so many thin happen like tat... i oso dunno... ya... dunno y my bro tis few day treat mi so good like tat la.. haha.. today still ask mi wan use his ez link ma... den i juz take n use la.. coz my ezlink oso no money liao.. haha... anythin cal mi dun mis cal mi n ask mi cal back.. coz my phone cannot call out... wat the... my father nv pay the bill for mi... now i onli can sms n recevied incomin call.. so ya... haha.. think soon my line wil be cancel if still nv pay... so ya... god bless mi...

2006-06-23T02:30:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. today been slpin at home.. tired.. haha.. hmmmm... tml morning go bei leong seng... ya... i'm quite guilty la... c my pig change til like tat... everythin like learn from mi la... wat the.. hao de bu xue den go learn those bad thin from mi... hai... mayb i dote her too much is a wrong thin ba.. hai... been tellin her many thin but think she left ear go in right come out.. nvm la.. one day she will noe wat i mean... we been drifted away.. now u have found ur fren n stead... juz be wise lo in everythin u do... can c ur fren around u how they r like.. not onli i say tat.. nvm la.. one day u wil noe... since u have them le.. think u oso dun need mi le... i oso wont bother u much ba... sorry for those bad influence i brim to u.... remember our promise ya.... anyway anythin need help juz come look for mi k... if one day all ur fren leave u i wil stil be here for u k.. tat a promise u asked mi to n i promised... anyway take care of urself.. dun anyhow at out side k....

2006-06-22T12:22:00.000-07:00

argh............ regret nv go for the hairstylist thin sia.... if not now i learin liao la... wat the..... stupid la mi.... but den the thin oso very last min la... hai...gonna wait for another chance to come..... now regret oso too late liao... hai... now need to find work again.... sian.. i hate findin work la... haha.. anyone got job intro??????? haha.....

2006-06-22T00:18:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. din when for the hair dressin thin yesterday... den slp til 3plus when down to the camp.. ya... den at nite while sittin wif rachel sis xuizhen n one guy.. den sis xuizhen tel us the frog thin.. wat her student take the frog go blend it.. haha.. den marg come n force mi pei her go bath... ya.. haha.. she ask mi many thin la while bathin... den after tat wait for mac to come den i watch moive til 5plus den go slp.. lay at there til 6plus den slp.. den wake up at 8plus or 9plus to book out lo.. den when eat wif marg they all.. den took a cab home wif yong zhi marg n wen kai.. ya.. den reach home online awhile den slp.. slp all the way to 11plus 12.. haha...

2006-06-20T02:04:00.000-07:00

today went down for the interview.. i get in.. but now got a big problam.. i oso dunno how... i need a tan bao ren i got le.. but now is the contract... they scare i san fen zhong ren do.. i oso scare la.. if i break it i need to pay 7000plus la.. i oso dunno.. hai.. juz noe somethin.. am i really so bad in ur eye..?? i noe u dun like ur member close to mi.. coz u think i will influence them.. i noe wat u thinkin.. tel ur member i'm cell group hoper.. wat the.. i noe u think tat i brin her bad oso.. she smoke u wil think tat is i influence her.. hai.. nvm la.. from last time u think tat le.. i wil brin bad ur member.. nvm den... hai... anyway i oso not a good person... i'm bad.. n i do evil thin k.. so ask ur member dun come near mi den... if they wan close to mi.. den too bad den... u all angel i devil ma...

2006-06-19T16:55:00.000-07:00

i wonderin many thin.. i oso dunno.. haha.. y do ppl wan to become crook? they may be happy now.. but did they think of thier furture? hmm.. dunno... y some ppl can lead a good life n some cant? y a fit ppl will become weak n fall? y ppl wil die..? they die le they go where? y nowaday so many ppl like short gun married? y she wil go around n find guy n let them fuck? is she really so cheap? y ppl wil take durg? y fren wil drift apart? y do i dote ppl so much? y ppl wil change? wat make them change? hmmmm.... i dunno... y y y y y y y y y y y????????????? haha...

hmmm... fri going to bei leong seng... ya.. think by this week i going to bei my ah ma too... juz now when c my uncle he was like still dunno how to say.. lucky tat day my bro realise somethin wrong wif him.. if tat day late 1more hour my uncle may die.. i still din noe he fainted there la.. i still tot he slpin... juz now go c him n my auntie they tot i still workin la.. den i got to bluff them dun let them worry.. lucky my cousin there help mi abit la.. haha.. den my uncle tel mi la wat got work muz hao hao work.. n thin la.. like so sad like tat la... is he going to pass away soon? i scare... the way he tok to mi my feelin is juz like wat my grandma tok to mi like tat b4 she die.. aiyo.. i oso dunno... dunno wat sickness he got? dun dare to ask my cousin.. hmmm... ya....

2006-06-19T02:34:00.000-07:00

hmm.. today went hospital c my auntie n uncle... ya.. den after tat when tampines meet pig awhile.. den after tat go parkway meet wei teck.. ya...den slack at parkway lo.. stupid wei teck when i reach he go tel the dave wat i am figther.. nonsense can.. i dun fight wan lo.. den he say wat all got jie wan is fighter.. wat shi jie wei jie jie wei den mi.. yin jie.. nonsense lo him.. haha... den they go train the boxin den wei teck say mi again... haha...den 9plus go meet rachel eat den after tat go find them again.. den go coffee shop sit lo.. coz they wan c soccer.. ya.. den after tat mi jie wei chee hon take cab home first.. ya.. tml going for the interview.. i scare.... haha... wish mi good luck ba.. haha.... hmmm...

2006-06-18T04:33:00.000-07:00

wat am i to u? i thinkin.. sooner or later.. i think i wont bother u anymore... or i may stop contactin u.. anyway u take care of urself.... dun regret it... dun feel sad too.. anyway think u oso wont... when the time i leave u.. i wil juz smile at u n say goodbye... u dunno how to cherish mi tis fren... anyway think u oso dun need mi anymore.... it ok la.. i dun mix wif u oso good.. i onli noe how to teach u those bad thin... hai...

2006-06-18T00:20:00.000-07:00

today sherry siao wan wake up so early den cal mi n wake mi up.. den after hang her phone i go back slp til 1plus 2.. den cal her.. den sis jo suddenly msg mi la.. i was like.... den 3 went meet sherry at her house ther... we was like think where to go la.. den end up go service... i was like so lost la... den find sis jo... den she us dunno go where sit.. i oso dunno which cell... ya.. den after service go le.. den sis jo say mi la.. everytime so many ppl to meet n thin la.. den ask mi stay to fellowship... den i say i dunno those member la.. den ya.. mi n sherry go meet qin at bugis.. ya.. wanted to eat steamboat wan but too many ppl den nv eat.. den walk to suntec eat.. after tat wanted to watch movie but dun have the show we wan c.. den walk to marina sq.. oso dunno do wat.. den we eat the ice cream.. wah.. eat le wan shit.. lol.. so went home shit la.. lol... tml meet sherry for beardfast guess.. haha.. i very scare monday goin for the hairdressin interview.. scare i cant get in... god bless mi.. haha.. den after think meet sherry go to the camp if she wan go.. i oso dunno.. lol...

2006-06-17T04:40:00.000-07:00

hai... pig already not the pig i noe anymore.. hai.... nvm la.. everythin wil change... i'm juz nth do her... but anyway nvm la.. i not going to bother her anymore... hai... i wan take drug n ma jiu my self.. can i.. hai... no one really care for mi.. need thin from mi den care for mi.. hai.. wat is this man.. hai... how i wish i may end my life now... no one wil understand mi.. even my self... hai...

2006-06-17T03:33:00.000-07:00

hai... wat the meaning of life...? wat a meaning of fren? hai... feelin my grandma is callin mi up there.. can u brin mi up.. hai... y everytime thin happen le den i noe how to cherish thin.. by the time is too late... hai.... i feel like cryin out loud... but i cant... hai... my life is juz sux.. y am i so useless... so stupid... hai... ah ma... can u brim mi up.. i miss the time when u r around... hai... i miss the past... y happiness come n gone so fast.... hai...

2006-06-17T03:11:00.000-07:00

hmmmm... today nv go work.. coz cant wake up.. think tis month bill is going to bomb til dunno wat.. i dunno when i go in gprs.. this morning i wake up i c my hp gprs is on... die... nvm.. den i change room contiune slp.. den suddenly my bro come in n cal my uncle... was i was like so scare la.. coz my uncle dunno y he cant move n even tok suddenly like tat.. b4 i slp back i tot he slpin so i nv care much n went slp.. b4 tat i feel somethin wired le.. but i dunno wat is tat...ya.. den i keep callin my uncle la.. den he like wan to tel mi somethin but cant tok den he keep stare at mi n point dunno wat.. while my bro n cousin waitin for the amluance to come... now i abit scare coz later i going to slp in the room coz my bro today usin my room coz his fren come.. hai.. now both auntie n uncle in hospital.. y like tat.. den after tat went to xinci house.. eat.. den watch tv lo.. den went out eat again.. den went home.. i can feel somethin really very strong.. izzit somethin going to happen? i scare... hai.. nvm.. god if u going to take thier life away or anyone of my family member life.. pls take my life away first... hai.. wanted to tok to pig.. but she since hai.. nvm... sad... i miss my grandma... i can feel her callin mi up there... is my life going to end soon or somethin going to happen to mi...

2006-06-16T02:05:00.000-07:00

today go work.. work is find.. den after work when down city hall meet jess den meet marg they all lo.. i was bore there.. feel so extra like tat la.. dunno y.. but nvm la.. after steamboat den go home lo..
sometime i think is there really a ture fren around mi.. who will give u money when u no money to eat.. who wil help u when even u need them? who wil tel u wat is rite n wrong n wake u up.. ya.. i noe i got those fren around mi.. when i no money they wil give mi money.. i need them thy wil be there.. i got problem they wil be there.. n wake mi up.. we are juz like a family.. now den i realise who are those ture fren around mi... anyway thank fren... no regret noe ing u guy.. miss the time when all of us get together.. seng had leave us.. but seng u r still our fren our bro in our heart.. u rox seng.. shan ar shan... miss the time when all of us come out slack n n have fun.. dunno he come out is a good thin or bad thin... i miss the past...
dunno y.. suddenly miss all my fren.. where u all my fren.. y time cant turn back n stop there... hai...
dun regret wat u say.... i gonna make my self durnk like nv b4... think i will nv be the same agian... i'm juz stupid.... hai... nvm... i may stop bloggin le.. dunno... everythin has change cHanGe CHanGE n CHANGE.... i wil oso change...

2006-06-14T06:45:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. today wake up den go find job.. ya.. after tat went home.. den evenin went down stair meet jie wei n shan.. ya.. after tat go home den 10plus went to meet pig.. she mad la.. take those nonsense pic.. haha.. ya.. den after tat when buy drink.. den janelle cal her n thin happen... long story.. i oso dunno wat really happen.. den my pig was so sad.. she wanted to cry but i was there she dun wan to cry in front of mi.. so she juz hold on to those tear in her.. keep blamin herself for all the thin.. n i oso dunno how to comfort her.. i'm juz keep askin her not to think so much.. i can c she thinkin of many thin.. n listen to wat she say.. n lookin after her.. hai.. is not ur fault pig.. is thier relationship is not strong enough.. n thier trust is not there too... stop thinkin abt the thin le n stop blamin urself.. hai.. she look so evil juz now the way she tok.. n let mi think dao leong seng... the time seng sad he oso like pig.. tok so evil... they way pig tok juz like seng.. hai... pig dun think too much k.. everythin gonna be alrite soon k... dun be afraid.. i'm here k...

hai... it since so much change in the thin around mi... tml should i go for the steamboat? no ppl ask mi go.. den jess ask mi to go.. like so paiseh la.. ppl nv ask u go den u go.. if i go oso sian.. nth to tok to them.. no topic.. we are juz like livin in two diff world.. they tok abt holy thin.. yet mi tok abt.... hai... later my basic theory.. nv study at all.. sure fail again.. hai..

lord... take all of mi, i give u my all.. let mi move in ur power.. n show mi ur kingdom...
i worship u lord..
my life in u restored..
here is my heart..
make it ur sanctuary...
for nobody else but jesus onli u..
my life belong to u...

i may not go church.. but u r still my God.. when is the time when i wil back to ur house???

2006-06-12T03:52:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. today wake up went tampines pass winson cigg.. den go tm walk walk awhile wif him lo.. den after tat i go SGH lo.. c my auntie.. den saw my cousin there oso.. den he ask mi wat i doin now n thin la.. haha.. after tat go my jurong house lo.. c my mother.. ya.. den pei her go shoppin lo.. haha.. ya.. den keep tellin mi thin.. say wat my father another side de child duno wat dunno wat.. i not tat stupid as her la.. dunno y she so stupid la.. older den mi still dunno how to think.. give ppl put black magic, den pierce tongue den pierce until dunno where den she become like abit siao siao.. haha.. i oso dunno.. den her fren go lend the loan shark she go be the mid man.. damn stupid la.. den now hai mi cannot put my tongue stun when i'm wif my parent.. wat the.. stupid ass la her.. everytime got so many problem.. lucky i nv c her b4.. i not she die.. haha.. den after i go back kallang de house lo.. ya.. haha.. stupid pig keep laught at mi ar.. den ask mi to play the stupid game.. haha.. should i go n303, n349, e315 or sop cel.. haha.. dunno... think wil go n303 ba.. wei le tat PIG..... haha.. wah i damn paiseh la.. send wrong msg.. den the rachel ng still happily reply mi n i happily reply her too.. damn paiseh la.. den msg so long liao den i noe i send wrong ppl.. haha.. wat am i goin to do tml.. lol... find work? dunno.. lazy to work sia.. but i need to work.. my family need mi.. hmm.. think i going to spent more time on my mother if not someday i sure wil regret it de... i need a way out............................ dun need slp today again... helpin pig to do her blog... haha... think i stop here le.. go do pig blog..if not die. tml wil be a long day for mi...

2006-06-11T03:57:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. today wake up... den go take cigg lo.. wait for guang ming come pass mi money den go meet shen they all.. take liao go tampines pass jo cigg den rash down to auntie house lo.. pass them the cigg.. den after tat mi n eugene n dongyu go for service lo.. go marg cg.. den we late.. reach there abt 515 lo.. den eugene wan to toilet den ask mi pei him go lo.. den we walk out.. smoke oso.. haha.. den dongyu n eugene so funny.. durin service mi n eugene like so idiot la.. i nv brin bible.. den we juz sit there la.. den dong yu sit beside marg.. haha.. wan slp cannot slp.. wan do anythin oso cannot.. haha.. den eugene so funny.. den after service marg ask mi go find sis jo.. den i go lo.. den sis jo brim mi dongyu eugene walk to dunno where.. den den pul us to a new cell. wah i so paiseh la.. sis jo keep sayin thin.. haha.. den after tat rash down to parkway meet weitwck they all lo.. den at parkway til 10 plus 11 plus like tat den we went geylang drink.. fuckin funny la.. those lao wan call one ger come in pei hong wen they all la.. den mi joey jasmine keep luagthin at them.. coz they keep pushin the ger around.. no one wan the ger.. haha.. den wei teck ask the ger go pei hong wen.. den keep disturb hong wen.. den hong wen paiseh the whole face damn red la.. haha.. lol.. hmm. den mi joey jasmine we sit there our leg keep kana step by ppl.. wat the.. haha.. den after go eat.. eat finish they go in the pub awhile den go le.. den wei teck they all go dunno where coz the who got problem.. den shi jie joey jasmine go home.. den i fellow jie wei lo.. sit at the coffee shop wif those lao eh.. ya lo.. they tok i dun understand.. they tok like wan figth like tat sia.. haha.. den after tat go home lo.. ya..
haha.. i c the jasmine fight the video liao.. wah.. jasmine damn fierce la when she figth.. haha.. beat until tat ger like dunno wat.. lol.. nice wan.. haha.. fighter ar.. haha..

hai... juz realise i'm hard to get out of the this world.. but i like to be wif them.. dunno y.. i dunno wan go back church not.. if i really commited to church i may lost all my fren.. lost 18yr n many yr of frenship de fren.. lost those fren tat oway there when i in trouble... lost those fren tat oway wif mi.. lost those sis n bro... n i dun wan it to happen.. hai.. or should i juz stay away from those church fren n stop contactin them.. juz stay away from church... if let mi choose between church n those fren i wil choose fren... but i still believe in jesus.. hai.. juz let time be ba.. sometime i really wan to rest in the house of god but i oway fail to do tat.. i oso dunno wat is going on if my life.. life since really meaningless to mi.. everyday wake up do the same thin over n over again.. hai... juz can imagine if one day my mother n auntie leave mi.. wat wil happen to mi... hai.. i miss my grandma.. i really miss her alot.. hai.. i'm lost in my life.. hai..

pig.. think i may disapoint u from today on.. i'm juz the bad company sorry to influence u those bad thin.. u juz spend more time on ur study n stead ba.. think dun need to bother abt mi.. anyway u oso dun need mi.. if i die outside juz remember to come bei mi can le.. i may not contact u le.. but anythin come look for mi k.. i'm oway here for u..

2006-06-09T00:51:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. today go cut hair.. my hair like shit la if nv style.. kao.. noe dun cut.. at the saloon 5h plus la.. haha.. waitin for qin n shan to make thier hair.. lol... spent 50dollar juz on my hair.. cut n buy the style hair thin... haha..wah lazy go find job sia.. haha.. no work no moeny to buy thin.. so muz work.. haha.. realise tat qin same as mi dearm big.. lol.. haha.. her tat dream i oso dream b4.. but.. haha.. hard to come ture lei.. onli we are rich den wil come ture... =x haha... buy a house next time juz for mi shan qin quimei.. sis.. n we can gather there.. lol... still remember last time everytime when i tel quimei my dream she will bth mi.. lol... haha... now think back we have noe each other so long le.. since pri sch.. haha.. have dream is good.. haha... lol... i have many dream.. haha.. but all is juz dream... hard to come ture... haha... but nvm.. i wil stil continue to dream big.. lol... hmmm.. tml mayb meetin my mother go hospital c my auntie.. ya.. have to take out my tongue stun.. if not my mother kp mi again.. lol..

2006-06-07T06:51:00.000-07:00

hmm. juz reach home.. juz now went bugis.. buy a very big bag.. lol.. n a shirt.. ya.. den saw hui ping.. she like change so much.. haha.. den after tat go shan house.. stupid shan took so long to open the door for us.. haha.. from third floor come down.. haha.. den at her house i keep findin thin to eat la.. den we open red wine to drink.. haha.. not nice wan.. den after tat 3plus we go east coast wat mac den sit at the beach tok lo.. hai.. many thin happen.. should not blog it out.. den sit there til 6 den go home le..
mon
go work get fire.. haha.. den i go shan house.. ya.. watch tv eat den slp awhile... den go parkway meet xinci.. aafter tat pei shan go cut hair.. haha.. ya.. den slack awhile den go home lo..
tue
nv go anywhere lo.. at home slack.. haha...
haha.. finish usin my pay in one day time.. wat the.. haha... juz now hear xin ci say got ppl c joey not happy.. den wan 1 on 1.. but joey cannot coz she got baby.. den shi jie ask jasmine help joey.. haha.. jasmine win.. i wan to c the video tat jasmine n tat ger 1 on 1.. haha.. lame wei teck go take down.. haha...
tot of going back to church.. but.. another half dun feel like.. if i go back which cell should i go... been jumpin cell pass few week when i go.. i oso dunno... hai.. i miss past E315...
nvm la.. now juz got to earn money for wat i wan to buy n do...

2006-06-03T18:07:00.000-07:00

thurs after work meet jess go youth conf.. haha.. while q ing saw yi zhuang n xin ying.. den after tat went down to down town.. help pig n her fren buy thin.. den take cab home...
fri after work go century sq take pay.. after tat meet qin den go eat den slack awhile den go home le.. tired..
today nv go work.. haha.. slp til afternon wake up online.. ya.. going bath den go xinci house.. after tat meetin qin n sherry ba.. go drink or slack ba.. ya..
feelin so tired tis few day.. dunno y.. think next week i going to buy mp4 le.. haha.. dunnno... buyin pig persent oso... pig pig pig pig pig... wat is going on wif us.. hai.... i'm so lost, empty, tired n lonely.. hai....

2006-05-31T10:21:00.000-07:00

today take cab to work again... die.. like everyday take cab til no money sia... after work go help jo buy cigg den meet her at her sch outside pass her lo.. hai.. realise somethin... think i wil juz stop botherin abt her le... she treat mi very bad.. hai.. nvm.. hmm.. i gettin my pay soon.. haha.. take le den go register for bike.. den go buy mp4 n jo persent... dunno should i buy tat for her.. but nvm la.. shall c how.. haha.. on 14 is my basic theory.. sure die again.. haven study.. haha..
many thin wan to say.. but nvm la.. hai... think wont blog too much on my blog le.. l'm juz transparent n nth to everyone... hai.. is so scary walkin in the empty road all alone by urself.... loneliness brin mi sadness...

2006-05-30T02:34:00.000-07:00

today wake uo.. take cab to work again.. i'm broke.. den work dunno y get soclded 3 time.. fuck wan lo.. bad mi come scold mi.. wat the.. nvm.. den break time.. wan go top up ez link.. cross road omost get bang by the stupid van.. lucky i stop... if i walk two more step i get bang le.. the van is damn near to mi la.. abt one of my feet away.. k nvm.. den walk to mrt while walkin back omost fall down.. den go back work get scolded again.. den work i finish all the thin she ask mi to do.. den she ask mi wait i sit at there from 4pm to 4.45pm doing nth starin at the wall.. ya.. den finish work go parkway NTUC meet alvin they all. i sit outside the NTUC got a ah bai sit beside mi tok to mi.. tel mi his sadness.. den i at there dunno wan to do wat.. ya.. den i go meet wanzi take the cd den go east coast find them.. i was lik damn bore la.. bein so left out.. den nth to do.. xiao hui n her fren wan go mac wash hand so i follow.. after tat went back to the pit.. den i help to bbq those food lo.. den after tat i alone go smoke den sit there.. really sad no wan bother abt mi.. i feel so.. hai nvm.. i go they oso dunno.. so i went to auntie house watch tv.. watch finish den i walk back to the pit lo.. den go there eat.. eat le go smoke again sit there den alvin come find mi.. really damn bore la.. hai..i'm juz nth to them.. i knew it wat wil happen when i wif them.. hai.. nvm.. msgin wif jo.. she attitude mi again.. hai.. everytime like tat.. hai nvm.. den reach home go read blog.. go wendy blog she ask mi to take care of pig n dun let her smoke to much.. but how? she wan smoke mean she wan.. i cant stop her from doin anythin.. i say de thin she oso wont listen.. iaya.. i oso dunno.. den go jess blog n she tag this to mi n i'm shock.. --->yInJiE!! i wAnNa gO yOuTh cOnfErEnCE!! =)) bRiNg mE aLoNgG!! LOL.. den joyce is like tryin to ask her go lo.. after seein the tag jess tag.. haha.. many thin happen today.. lazy to think wle.. going slp le... later still got work...

2006-05-28T23:10:00.000-07:00

hmm.. today nv go out stay at home.. sat when for service all the song they sing olmost all i nv hear b4 wan.. den after service went east point eat lo.. den after after tat jo ask mi help her buy cigg lo.. den i buy den go meet her pass her the cigg lo.. janelle is cute.. lol.. after tat went home lo..
hai..u r no longer the one i noe... i give up le.. really give up on u.. u say i change.. but u change more den mi.. hai.. nvm... DISAPPOINTED.... we are dirftin away every single day...

2006-05-26T03:03:00.000-07:00

today wake up bath den take cab to work again... reach there.. cut paper.. reach 8 cut til 11 plus.. cut til i wan slp la.. stupid.. haha... den she ask mi do paste the disk.. dunno wat.. den after work go down to beach road.. den after tat go home.. watch tv til i slp... den 12plus wake up.. c got one miss call from pig.. ya.. den online.. ya.. think going to slp le ba.. tml still got work.. sian sat work at 7 den finish at 4 den muz rash down for service.. dunno eugene n dong yu going ma.. haha..

2006-05-25T18:46:00.000-07:00

anyone can tel mi wat is going on... everythin change... hai... y? nth going to be the same again...

2006-05-25T01:31:00.000-07:00

hmmm... today wake up at 7.. go bath den take cab to work.. today work is borin too... after work go parkway meet shan n tai zi.. den meet chee hon they all.. den we go eat le den go hot shot awhile den go le.. mi chee hon jeremy take cab.. ya.. den mi go find qin n sherry at kallang airport.. den after tat go home le... reach home watch tv den online c pig blog... dunno she so sad today.. yet i not there... she did msg mi but i dun really bother of the msg.. hai... sorry pig.. stop cryin le k.. no point cry when everythin has happen.. dun put all the blame n fault on urself too... stop runnin away from those problem le.. face it n go through it... nothin is inpossible... onli c u wan not... go find someone tat really can help u... i really dun wish to c u becomin lik tat.. hai...
everyone may say no one understand them.. yes is ture.. everyone have thier own story own journey of life.. life is how u look it think it n how u face it.. thin may come out not ur way but u still got to go through it.. u may c i oway jokin n smilin around... but who noe the unhappiness behide mi.. no wan... but i choice to put those unhappiness aside n live wif those happiness around mi.. coz happiness is really somethin u cant buy yet is fast... many thin is unpredictable in life.. who noe... sometime i cross the road i juz hope tat a car wil juz bang on mi... i too tired... hai.. nvm.. feelin so lonely this few day... n i hate it... it really sux...

2006-05-24T02:05:00.000-07:00

hmmm... today wake up at 810... late for work.. haha... workin is borin... can simply make mi slp.... den after work den go home le.. nv go anywhere.. ya... reach home eat le watch tv.. den fall asleep.. ya.. borin... hmmm.... lazy to think wat to blog le.... haha...

2006-05-23T00:52:00.000-07:00

hmmm... today when work.. was bore workin... work til i wan slp sia.. haha.. coz the job they give mi to is too easy... lol...den after work work meet pig pass her the cigg.. den go her house.. she ask mi help her do the internet thin i dunno how.. lol... den 10plus dahpne come back den i stay there awhile den go home le.. ya... later sure lao sai la.. reach home eat my dinner den eat two mango.. haha.. the mango so nice.. simply love mango.. haha.. den eat the dunno wat fruit oso.. haha... damn tired today.. slp one hurs plus onli yesterday den today 640 wake up le go bath den go work.. think will be slpin soon ba.. haha... tml wil be a better day.....

2006-05-22T01:07:00.000-07:00

hmmm... today wake up at 2plus... den online.. den xinci msg mi wan go eat steam boat not.. den i go bath den go auntie house find them, darren xinci ron chee hon kenny.. stupid chee hon mouth so big la.. go tel them yesterday mi n sherry the thin.. den they laught at mi la.. haha.. den after tat we go kim ta seng meet the rest of them.. den we take cab down to marina south eat steam boat.. on the way there stupid wei teck n kenny keep sayin mi la.. den byran at there keep laughtin.. haha... den we eat til 8plus den sit patrick lorry down to geylang wan take cigg but dun have le onli left red wan.. so we when down to parkway.. ya... den go hotshot play.. play daytona wif jie wei n jeremy.. they play cheat la.. stupid jie wei ask jeremy make my gear end up i get last la.. haha... den 9plus 10 mi n jie wei take bus home lo.. ya.. den online.. bore.. den msgin wif pig lo.. after tat she cal mi tok til 1.. keep hintin mi ar... u wil juz receive the hello panda box n the hello panda i wil eat k.. lol... ya... tml workin le... sian..... got to wake up at 630 den go bath den go work le....
who wil be the one cherishin mi out there? lovin and care for mi?? RIGHT HERE WAITING... =)
miss the past... the whole group of us havin fun together... it since so long ago..

2006-05-21T14:05:00.000-07:00

hmm.. yesterday around 6 go meet xinci at parkway.. den we go eat n walk around... den my hp spoil la.. keep auto shut off.. i on den auto shut again.. dunno how many time la.. den after tat cannot even on my hp la... den eat finish mi n xinci take go hp shop den the unlce help mi make ok le.. haha.. thank god sia.. the unlce help mi make free.. haha.. den after tat go kim ta seng wait for darren n jie wei... they sit awhile den go club le.. den mi n xinci wanted to play pool but damn many ppl den nv play... den go find place sit down lo.. think wan to do wat.. haha.. den jie wei msg mi ask mi to transfer money den i go transfer le we go mac sit down lo n take my free ice cream.. lol... den sherry msg mi wan go liquid room wif her bro... den i anythin la.. den pei xinci til 10plus den i go home change den go meet sherry.. den reach le liquid room... long stroy.. end up nv go in.. but i saw tat guy again.. haha.. den mi n sherry from clerk quay to boat quay to ctiy hall to bugis... lol... den go bugis eat le.. den beside there got a hotel den we go in sit n enjoy the air con.. lol.. den dunno y we tok.. tok til leong seng n those thin la.. den sherry say wat her fren father open coffin shop n thin la.. den stupid sherry say wat at nite cannot say those thin la they wil stand around u n listen to thier story.. after we tok so much le den she tel mi.. den we damn scare la den some more the hotel a bit scary la.. den is like 3 plus la.. wah... den we scare den we leave tat place la.. den sit outside the hotel c the ppl clean window and tok.. lame... den after tat we take cab home lo.. ya..

2006-05-20T16:08:00.000-07:00

borin rite now... hmmm... dunno wat happenin... hai nvm... wat the meanin of life?? dunno... pig ar pig.... juz let everythin go ba... is pointless holdin on.... sometime i juz find tat u really treatin damn bad la.. but nvm.. ite ok.. haha.. hmmmm... bore bore n bore..... monday start work le... sian.. next week eugene n dong yu wan go church but i dunno i can not... haha... if go oso dunno going to which cell group.. haha.. when can i buy my mp4.... haha.... sian... izzit ex for a mp4 cost 120plus? haha... my hp spoil.. keep unto shut.. fuck sia... abit abit den it auto shut off.... even i read msg until half.. den ppl cal mi tok awhile auto shut oso.. sian..... stupid sherry... wan help mi la hong sian la.. so paiseh can... haha... she intro the guy all not my type... lol... yesterday she keep sayin la den her fren an oso... paiseh sia... haha... i'm juz waitin for the fade to come... lol... dunno y sherry shan qin they all like very hopin tat i have a stead.. lol.. think if i got stead le they wil be damn happy.. lol... haha.. i bore.. imagine sat stayin at home.. wat the... haha... dunno y sia.. everytime one ppl cal mi out all call den no ppl call den all nv call.. wah... damn bore now la.... sian...